Turn... Pt. 3

... was to call Aaron Stern.

There are marked, specific times in my life when I can tell that God was reaching into space and time and giving me a loving 'prod.'  For me, this goes beyond an "I love you" (although those are my favorites).  I talking about times when there has been a specific, undeniable, simple instruction to do something. "Pick up that old woman who is hitch-hiking in winter, you have an empty seat." or "Go talk to that man crying in the bookstore."  Sometimes I agree and do - other times it's a struggle to overcome fear, and I shrink back.

I don't have many regrets in life, but those missed opportunities are on the list.

Driving home from Castle Rock - after yet another encouragement to get in touch with Aaron - was one of those times.  I thought it was silly, "surely he already has someone - how do I just suggest myself to be his leader?!" and I fought it for another 10.65 miles.  Then I called, trembling, if I'm being honest.

"Aaron, this is uhmm -Wes.  Tongue.  And we'll-uh, I'm calling to --- talk to you a little. --About your church and umm-well, what's happening in me recently... soo, ahh, give me a call sometime and we can chat about what's happening... recently-" and on I rambled - but I did it! 

There's not space to detail what followed, and it didn't happen all at once.  I continued on at New Life, and started a slow, methodical process of doubt and trepidation - all the while knowing now that I was on the right path.  That unction carried us through it.  And there continued to simple, loving confirmations along the way.  It was our choice to jump, no doubt.  But God continued to stand alongside, whispering to our hearts, "I'll catch you."

During the latter parts of December 2011, I had led several times at the Mill City Church LiFT meetings and was riding home with Aaron when I told him we had decided to 'jump.'  He nearly drove us off the road.  It was exciting!  It was a season of celebration for what God was doing in each of us - and in Fort Collins.  But then reality started to settle in too.  We would be mobile - indefinitely.  And of course there was no salary.  Churches pay their pastors, but we didn't have a church yet!!  New Life surrounded us with joy and appreciation, and supported Jo and I very generously in the transition but I began to discover something else...

The 'jump' was only the beginning.

One of the things that had prompted us in the beginning was volunteering for the uneasy discomfort, the seeming uncertainty of last minute provision, new friends and leaving the home we'd grown to love.  We couldn't fathom what that would all mean - thank God!  If we'd known the extent of future stretching at the start, who knows if we would have jumped at all.

God knew.  He knew what we could bear, and what the bearing would grow in us. Dependency, grounded trust, and faith.  It has been hard, but worth every nervous step, every leap into thin air because we're becoming who we wouldn't have been otherwise.  That's God working in us - and in Fort Collins.

Mill City is the perfect, God-appointed place for our family.  It is full of genuine, Jesus seeking people - somtimes more people than chairs it seems.  We're 6 months old, 6 months younger than Everly.  If anything, we've learned the best way to plant a church - the best way to live -

Keep on jumping.

Turn... Pt. 2

There's this thing about going on a missions trip, or going on vacation, or telling what you think is an amazing story (and getting blank stares 11 minutes in)... no one will identify with your experience the way you can. In fact it takes an amazing story, and an amazing storyteller to get and keep someones attention. Fact.

But since you're obviously here...

New parenthood, combined with a near-death experience puts a different lens onto the circumstance of life.  I had a trip planned less than a week after the accident to Des Moines, IA and didn't want to miss it.  The worst of my injury was a severely sprained ankle that couldn't take weight for days, but I bit the bullet and took a cane with me (through TSA security; that's a separate story).  Hope Lutheran needed lots of trained worship pastors and was considering starting their own school of worship - and wanted to talk to me about it!

Talking at length with their worship pastor Perry, I began to remember a dream from years back, the reason I went to school: to one day be the worship pastor at a church myself.  Watching him work with his team and craft fresh ways of demonstrating the gospel through song and elements in the service was inspiring to me.  As I flew home, now walking without the cane, I found myself thinking, "if not now, when?" as well as, "but where and HOW?"

When I got home something had shifted in me, and talking with Jo we decided to begin a period of directed prayer about the idea of transition along with many late night discussions to discover if we were on the same page.  Mostly, I tucked these things away in my heart - after all I was still working full time at the NLSW, and life was busy already with a two month-old!  Still, I also began to seek the wisdom (combined with coffee) of close friends.  My friend Gregg was excited for us but cautioned after working at many churches that he'd never again go somewhere in an absence of relationship.  Glenn quickly said something to the effect of "GO for it!"  Glenn is close friends with Aaron Stern, who had recently announced he was planting a church - and said "Wes, you know you should call Aaron, here's his number..."

I tucked that all away until I talked with my predecessor at the NLSW, Austin Pyle.  He had moved on from New Life in similar fashion and now was the worship pastor at Denver United.  As we talked, he encouraged me that church planting was the best thing he's ever done - and that it had even benefited his marriage!  I slowly began to better understand these lurking feeling in my heart - and he too said, "Wes, you have to call Aaron!"  Driving back from Castle Rock that day, I didn't know the end result, but I knew the next step...


The journey concludes in Part 3...

To Everything... Turn...

Everly was born on August 26th, 2011 at about 9:30am.  That was the first of several times over the following months things started to be "fishy."  Although your first guess, poop, would also be correct I'm talking about something else entirely.  In this quick little series, I want to tell you why where we are now is so dramatically different from this time a year ago.

In July, I wrote about the transition I was experiencing at New Life; I was licensed as a Pastor while simultaneously stepping back from directing the New Life School of Worship. The 10th year of the program began with a bang, Everly was weeks old, and life was suddenly different. Parenthood is a wonderful, glorious, ego-killing slap in the face. I'm not sure I was an adult beforehand.

Past readers know of my cycling adventures and enthusiasm. Fall was thickening, and the hours of daylight after work were waning. At the end of September I had purchased a head and taillight for my Bianchi road bike and embarked on my 2nd ever dusk/dark ride. Strobes ablaze I rode 16 miles, and 2 blocks from home was hit by a car.

You must understand, as shocking that sentence would be to someone who read it for the first time, I've been talking about it now for over 8 months.

A driver made a left-hand turn in of me - though I had the right of way - and I was rocketed over his car at roughly 25mph. I'm guessing as to the speed, but it was fast, my light was green, I was going downhill and was almost home. I remember thinking in the final .86 seconds that allowed normal thought, "I hope I'm OK for my family," and "I've had close calls, but this won't be one of them."

But then I was off the bike, hit the road... and I'll spare the blow by blow details. I'm alive. In short, it was all a miracle. No concussion or internal bleeding, and though I can't say I 'walked away' - from the ambulance or the hospital for that matter - I can tell you something changed in both Jo and I that night. If having a baby took away some of our ignorance about life, this took the rest.

I'm still recovering to a degree; I won't be the person I was before ever again. I regret that it happened - but now that it has I am thankful for the new awareness it brought. These were the "tickles" that began to propel us forward... toward what - we still had no idea.


The journey continues in Part 2...

Change

Blogging became a tradition for me in 2011.  But - I started, and I stopped, all in less than one calendar year.  Not a new resolution; I nonetheless start at roughly the same time in 2012 with fresh hopes.

If you look back, I once wrote a post about journaling that I think applies here.  It wasn't that I didn't want to blog, not that the urge to write was absent.  I simply didn't, and haven't had the time.  There has been a lot to contribute to that - a LOT.  Primarily I'd say, becoming a father and needing to be intentional with my time for family in a fresh way.  But also, it's this thing called change that tends to slightly interfere with our old habits, our old rhythms.  When something new is introduced, it needs space previously devoted to other things.

Strangely enough, I think I just may be entering a new season that will allow for a little more flexibility.  It also happens to be a season filled with more travel, meetings, work and dinner dates than ever before; not to mention changing diapers and bedsheets at 3am some nights!

But I'd like to remove the pressure to perform or become something in particular as I write here.  That's the true culprit in my opinion.  I believe it will still have some standard.  To whatever degree possible, I hope this continues to be a platform to make Jesus famous in everyday ways - celebrating the joys, quirks and mysteries of life.

In our newest season, I hope that you'll continue to turn here for updates, photos and ideas to dialogue.

Soli Deo Gloria -


Wes, Jo and Everly